ok, i get it. i can’t ignore you….

today on a level from 1-10., 10 being horrible…my pain level is an 8.3.

my lower back and shoulders are screaming at me. I took my meds this morning and it was as if i took a tic tac, because nothing has changed.

As i sit here at work, i am starting to think…how much longer can i work fulltime, travel an hour each way and TRY to manage my pain.

today is one of those days where i really really wish i did not have the need to work. because the pain in my lower back feels as if someone smacked me super hard with an ice cold metal bat.

my shoulders feel like i have two 5lbs bags of rice hanging from my neck ( oh wait…I DO…their are called boobs )

But i dont even know where to begin as far as asking for a 4 day week.

so much red tape. so much office politics. so much pain.

sitting hurts, standing hurts..and sometimes breathing hurts.

i know i said this blog would be about being fashionable while having FMS, but today the FMS is overstepping the topic.

( ps. im totally rocking a cute jean full skirt, pink t-shirt and a lavendar wrap top i refashioned into a sweater. because even though its 80 degrees outside, in the office it feels like 68-70)

I will try hard today not to dwell on the pain. but its not easy.

i have to work.

i have no choice

i have to work and when i go home i have to clean the house, because g-d forbid i complain about being tired. as much as i love my bf, he is not the most understanding person put there and will most likely give me a guilt trip because my housekeeping skills arent to par.

i really really wish i wasnt in pain or was tired all the time.

and to top all this off my chiropractor informed me last week that HEY you have scoliosis and your pelvic bone is skewed, hence why you feel loopsided sometimes and yoru right side of your body feels more pain that your left…..

and then people wonder why i am not a fan of doctors these days.

everytime i go to one, its never good news.

ok let me stop this pity party and get back to work.

but i leave you with this, when you are in a bad flare up, what is your favorite garment?

xo

m

i know i know, where have i been

i look surprised because i have no arms, originally uploaded by bellamabella.

well for starters, i have had some flare ups here and there. and its hard.
its had to accept and its hard to deal with.

ive also been sketching ( when im not too tired) and have a few things in the works to make.

as im typing this, my legs are numb.

you gotta love FMS….ok no.

i should get out of bed and do some sewing!

but, when you are stiff as a board its hard.

cant wait till i start my wardrobe refashion..i have a ginormous stack of textiles and clothes. actually a whole room full.

but until my body starts to wake up, i’ll be in bed.

fibro sleep, but look @ the padded headboard i put up